Zach Sobiech

Dear Zach,

I hope you are reading this up there, in a beautiful place with clouds. Let me tell you that I heard about your story before you passed away, and when you did I promessed myself I would never forget all the things you taught us. Sometimes my mind doesnt let me see the beauty of living and I feel guilty even knowing I have no decision power over my illness. But I try so hard, and I listen to your words over and over again. And it's been three years and I havent forgotten you. You were so special, and you will always be, in our hearts. You did so much in your last days. You were so amazing, such a beautiful soul. Your smile was full of power and everyone felt lucky of meeting you. I know you did fly a little higher and that you are feeling proud of all you got to do. Zach, you did in 18 years what some people dont in all their long lifes. And, I wonder why did you have to go. You were so special and talented. But somehow I get that the fact that you were running out of time was what made you realize how lucky we are of being alive and be such an inspiring person.

You wouldnt believe how much you have changed the world. And it was to better. People do remember you. People do love you. And we will be forever thankful about it. Thank you Zach ♡ ♡

Clouds

Zach Sobiech

I fell down, down, down
Into this dark and lonely hole
There was no one there to care about me anymore
And I needed a way to climb and grab a hold of the edge
You were sitting there holding a rope

And we'll go up, up, up
But I'll fly a little higher
Go up in the clouds because the view is a little nicer
Up here my dear
It won't be long now, it won't be long now

When we get back on land
Well I'll never get my chance
Be ready to live and it'll be ripped right out of my hands
And maybe someday we'll take a little ride
Go up, up, up and everything will be just fine

And we'll go up, up, up
But I'll fly a little higher
Go up in the clouds because the view is a little nicer
Up here my dear

It won't be long now, it won't be long now
If only I had a little bit more time
If only I had a little bit more time with you

It could go up, up, up
Then take that little ride
We'll sit there holding hands
And everything would be just right
And maybe someday I'll see you again
We'll float up in the clouds and we'll never see the end

We'll go up, up, up
But I'll fly a little higher
Go up in the clouds because the view is a little nicer
Up here my dear
It won't be long now, it won't be long now

Hey

Hey, I know it's been a long time, but I still think about you.I remember you. And way more than what I should or you'd believe. Sometimes I cry myself to sleep when I have a hard day and I miss telling it all to you. And you wouldn't believe all  stuff that has been happening and all new people I have met. I have had a lot of new opportunities to get close to someone and I don't accept them. I try to, I really do. But I discover then that what I'm actually doing is trying to replace you, and no one can.

I miss knowing you. I know it sounds stupid but it feels like I didn't know you anymore. I don't know how are you feeling what new stuff you are doing and etc... And that breaks me. It's destroying me.

I still do

Hey. I still remember you. And I haven't forgotten what day is today. I used to love 4. Now I hate them. I used to have good marks at school. Now all teachers ask me what's wrong. I say nothing.  Like nothing was a synonim for your name.

So hey. How are you. You still remember me? Because I do. Every fucking minute of the day. And I hate it.

I avoid being with nothing to do because somehow suddenly you appear on my mind and you wont go away for hours. But, however, even when Im doing stuff suddenly I stop and think of you. Ugh. Why won´t you leave me. I wish I knew how to quit you. But I dont. And its driving me fucking crazy. 

Letting you go

To let go doesn't mean to stop caring;
It means I can't do it for someone else.
To let go is not to cut myself off...
It's the realization that I can't control another...
To let go is not to enable,
but to allow learning from natural consequences.
To let go is to admit powerlessness,
which means the outcome is not in my hands.
To let go is not to try and change or blame another,
I can only change myself.
To let go is not to care for, but to care about.
To let go is not to fix, but to be supportive.
To let go is not to judge,
but to allow another to be a human being.
To let go is not to be in the middle arranging all the outcomes,
but to allow others to affect their own outcomes.
To let go is not to be protective,
It is to permit another to face reality.
To let go is not to deny, but to accept.
To let go is not to nag, scold, or argue,
but to search out my own shortcomings and correct them.
To let go is not to adjust everything to my desires,
but to take each day as it comes and cherish the moment.
To let go is not to criticize and regulate anyone,
but to try to become what I dream I can be.
To let go is not to regret the past,
but to grow and live for the future.
To let go is to fear less and love more.

One day

“One day I’m going to do something reckless. One day I’m going to show up at your door and lay the earth at your feet. I will look at you and say that I’ve loved you with every mile between us and I will love you through a thousand more. You were crafted from the stars and the sea and I have never, in this lifetime or the last, seen anything that moves or speaks like you. One day I will do something reckless. One day I will tell you that you look like the rest of my life.”

This text doesn't belong to me

Al perderte yo a ti

Al perderte yo a ti, tú y yo hemos perdido: 
yo, porque tú eras lo que yo más amaba 
y tú porque yo era el que te amaba más. 
Pero de nosotros dos tú pierdes más que yo: 
porque yo podré amar a otras como te amaba a ti, 
pero a ti no te amarán como te amaba yo.

Autor del poema: Ernesto Cardenal

Ya no sé

Ya no sé si te amo o si te odio. No sé si duermo y sueño o dormito y pienso. No sé si es de día o de noche. No sé que hora es ni que tiempo hace. No sé si lloro por ti o río por ti. Ni si quiera sé la letra de estas canciones. Sólo sé la de nuestra canción. No sé si bebo para olvidarte o olvido para beber. No sé qué digo ni que no digo.

No sé que pasó ni que no pasó.  No sé si te fuiste o te eché. No sé si te recuerdo o te olvido. No sé si grito o si callo. No sé si me miras o si le miras. No sé a dónde vamos ni de dónde venimos. No sé si me eriza la piel el frío o si lo haces tú.

No sé, no sé. No sé ni quiero saber nada. Me basta con tenerte aquí y ahora, los dos tan ignorantes, tan enamorados.

No te marches

Apagas la luz, me observas en la oscuridad, y puedo notar tu silueta tranquila, segura, tratando de alcanzarme con la mirada. Aquí estamos, tendidos a los pocos rayos de luz que entran por la persiana, peleándose por brillar el que más. Me recuerdan a nosotros en el pasado, tan rápidos y tan fuertes para brillar. Lo queríamos todo, iluminábamos con nuestro paso todo lo que había alrededor. ¡Y, míranos ahora, escondiéndonos en la oscuridad!

Dime, ¿Qué ha pasado? ¿Qué ha cambiado? Quédate aquí, no me dejes ir, me arrojaste a la oscuridad y ya no conozco nada seguro a parte de tus brazos. Ya no veo nada, todo es tan diferente... Tu me trajiste aquí, ayúdame. No me abandones, te necesito.

¿Por qué me besas tan lento? ¿Piensas en marcharte? ¿Es por ello que quieres saborear cada milímetro de mis labios? Dime la verdad, ¿quieres huir? ¿sin mi? Y ahora ¿Qué haces? ¿por qué paras? Ámame ahora que puedes, seré tuya  y tu mío para siempre.

Sólo tienes que decirlo. Sólo tienes que quedarte.

You are changing me. And it makes me tremble just to think how much. I used to love something really insane before you appeared in my life. And now, I don´t even like it a little bit. You aren´t even mine but.. you know, that amazing sensation you cause on me it´s inevitable and makes want to stay near you, only with you and nobody else.

I'm not trying to write a beautiful poem or anything like that. Just trying to organize my feelings. I was so sure that I would never feel again something like this for anybody and suddenly you came and my world just fell apart. Every fucking plan I had about my future just disappeared and turn out to be only you.

I tought I had everything organized and planned and boom, here you are, like a bomb to my body. What am I supposed to do now? Shouldn't you give me an answer? At the end, it's you the one that made a chaos my life.

I tought I already had enough heartbroken and all that stuff, you know? But, shit, this is comming like a really big wrecking ball to me, I don`t know how to stop it or how to deal with it and I'm afraid. Yep. Afraid of love. Because love always sucked in my life and this one will be even worse.

Ya no le echo tanto de menos

-¿y, cómo lo llevas?

-Ya no le echo tanto de menos... Es decir, aún me levanto alguna que otra noche cuestionandome dónde está, qué pasó, pero... Puedo dormir. En ocasiones le veo, entre la gente, su dulce silueta... Y entonces me doy cuenta que es sólo mi imaginación. Todavía veo sus ojos en la mirada de otras personas, o me recuerdan ciertas palabras a él. Pero ya no, ya no lloro todos los días, deseando estar a su lado. Ya no grito a cualquiera por la tristeza que me produce no verle. Ya ni si quiera pienso tanto en él. Simplemente, ya no le echo tanto de menos.