Letting you go

To let go doesn't mean to stop caring;
It means I can't do it for someone else.
To let go is not to cut myself off...
It's the realization that I can't control another...
To let go is not to enable,
but to allow learning from natural consequences.
To let go is to admit powerlessness,
which means the outcome is not in my hands.
To let go is not to try and change or blame another,
I can only change myself.
To let go is not to care for, but to care about.
To let go is not to fix, but to be supportive.
To let go is not to judge,
but to allow another to be a human being.
To let go is not to be in the middle arranging all the outcomes,
but to allow others to affect their own outcomes.
To let go is not to be protective,
It is to permit another to face reality.
To let go is not to deny, but to accept.
To let go is not to nag, scold, or argue,
but to search out my own shortcomings and correct them.
To let go is not to adjust everything to my desires,
but to take each day as it comes and cherish the moment.
To let go is not to criticize and regulate anyone,
but to try to become what I dream I can be.
To let go is not to regret the past,
but to grow and live for the future.
To let go is to fear less and love more.

Please

It get so scared thinking I may lost you. Maybe I already did. I know you don't mind, you don't care about us as much as I do. But I need you. I hate this sensation of depending of anyone so much.

I hate having that feeling of being a failure again. It only comes with knowing new people, being good friends and losing them . I always fuck up and I'm so afraid when I think it may be my fault.

One friend's mother used to tell me time was the solution for everything. And I have some hope she may be right. So I say to myself "wait a couple of weeks, everything will be okay again". But I know it's not always like that. And what If that "not always" is exactly this case? I can't lose you babe, I can't be lonely again, not again, I need you so much it freaks me out. Please don't go, please...