HATE

I hate myself. Not in the way people are getting used to say now a days: like it was something cool or idfk. It's not that way. I hate myself in a completely agressive and dangerous way. Sometimes I wish I had two bodies just to be able to hit myself. I literally think I'm ridiculous by every word I say. I was even scared of getting into a bus, just because I thought I would walked in in a different or funny way and everyone would laugh.

It's not social anxiety. People aren't the one I'm scared of. Its me. Its myself. That's what I hate so much. Just the way my face is, my body, every little detail. I wish I could break it in pieces and make me disappear.